Movin Out

I would like to apologize for being a lazy blogger lately. It will start to get better soon, I promise. I have been in the process of moving over the last two weeks and it is not an easy endeavor. I thought 'Oh, I'll just buy a few things, pack a few things and move..it will be like college.' NOPE. In college everyone brings something to the table making your overall individual contribuition a little more manageable. I need things that I never even knew I needed i.e. a cheese grater, toilet brush, curtain rods, things you take for granted when you live at home. All these things add up and I have a rather large dent in my bank account at the moment but hopefully it will all be worth it. Right now you wouldn't know that though judging by the numerous boxes, pieces of unassembled ikea furniture, lack of tv and the fact that my dog is in full throttle resist mode. She has been relieving herself all over the house, not eating, barking her head off when I step outside..I'm not making the best impression on my new neighbors to say the least. I hope she warms up to her new home sooner then later.

I do have to say, unlike Molly, I am in love with the house. I will post pictures as soon as it is done. I love being so close to the beach and there is a surfer/island mentality that is obvious in the town. I love that. I miss my momma a lot and my other pups.. its hard to leave home, I wish I could have stayed but we all have to grow up sometime, right?..I'm going to be 25 this year, time to be a big girl. I have been in my own full throttle resist mode for awhile but everything kind of fell in place at the same time and I knew it was time.

As I begin this new chapter of my life I am feeling so many things; exitement, fear, sadness, happiness, anxiety..I am a bit of an emotional smorgasbord, but I think thats normal. Afterall, change is never easy but it is a natural, necessary part of life. We can choose to resist or embrace change and I'm choosing to embrace it.

WALMART

If your ever feeling sad or bad about yourself a quick visit to www.peopleofwalmart.com is just what the doctor ordered.

Maybe this is mean but these people brought it upon themselves..sorry...

and this lady just makes me smile..

just in case you felt like crying today

Change

Change is a funny thing. It's something we all go through, an inevitable part of life. It can make us feel so many emotions at the same time; excitement, fear, anxiety, hope etc. As human beings we are creatures of habit. We all have our routines, a way of thinking and doing things and that makes us feel safe and content. We resist change. Why? Because with any great change comes great risk and adjustment. It's often unfamiliar, something we have never experienced before and that makes us vulnerable. To change something about our life, for example, a job, a home or a relationship is scary. There is the possibility that we may fail or be unhappy but on the flip side there is the equal possibility that we will succeed and be happier then we ever thought possible.

I'm going through a few changes in my life right now. Can you tell? Im excited, scared, anxious and hopeful, among other things, all at the same time. I'm taking a risk, hoping that it will be a positive change for me at this point in time. The beauty of this life is that there is no permanency to our decicions. We can change things for ourselves if we choose, it may not always be easy but it is possible. So, I've learned not to be afraid to take a chance, try something new. Could it backfire? Ofcourse. But it could also be the best thing I ever did. Afterall, isnt it better to follow your heart, try and fail then to be crippled by fear and never know what could have been? That's what I thought too.

The Things We Do For Love

My boyfriend has always been an outdoorsy guy. He lives for the survivor type adventures. Me..not so much. For our 6 year anniversary (go us) I decided to try to be a good girlfriend and agree to a 3.3 mile hike up Bear Mountain. Some of you more 'in shape' people may laugh at such a short distance as he did but I will tell you that this was not an easy feat. Here it is..the mountain I barely conquered...Not so big you say? Piece of cake? Yes, these were my thoughts as well until about 5 minutes in when I seriously considered turning back.

This is at the beginning of the trail.. Notice the lack of sweat, the smile on my face, my muscles at this moment are still in their relaxed, preferred state.

Who ever mapped out this trail had people like me in mind. Every few hundred feet were perfect rocks to sit on. As much as I wanted to turn back and head over to the pool to sunbathe with a margarita in hand I had a little pep talk with myself. "Liz, your going to be very mad at yourself if you don't get to the top. You can do this. Slow and Steady." Yea, fine..I am a dork but it worked.

We made it! 2 hours and 2 gallons of water later here we are on top of Bear Mountain. The view and tranquility was worth the effort. Thank you to my wonderful, patient, encouraging boyfriend as I could not and would not have done this without you.

Now its my turn..Broadway date! hehehe

love love love

Since I had such a wonderful experience with 'rent the runway,' I wasted no time in securing a dress for the next wedding I have in August...here it is..a Nicole Miller Sweetheart mini..

it's love....

Thoughts From the Heart

I have so many questions I would like to ask of you;
Where have you been? Why don't you care? What did I do?
Do you ever think of me? Know that I often think of you.
I wish you weren't so selfish, I wish you wanted me too.
I wonder what my childhood would have been like if you were there for me.
Maybe it would have been easier, maybe I would have been happy.
All my life I have longed for you more then you will ever know.
Over and over again I was hurt by the lack of love that you would show.
I've spent many years trying to understand how this came to be.
I think it's simply who you are, you've refused to change for your family.
I want you to know that I miss you and I'll always love you still.
Afterall, your my father, there's a hole in my heart only you can fill.
Maybe one day we can be friends, I'd like that very much.
I think you might be proud of who I am and may want to stay in touch.
In the mean time I'll be patient and continue to be okay..
Thanks to the love from my family and friends that I am blessed with every day.