Months 3 and 4

SO I will be combining months 3 and 4 for this post because I am a little behind but I have a great excuse, YOU! You are keeping me so busy and I love spending all of my free time with you.  You have grown SO much over the last two months, baby girl.  I know I say this every month but time. is. flying!! While I miss things about you being newborn I wouldn't trade it for right now.  Each stage is better than the last. You are starting to show your personality to us and we could not be more excited.  You make mommy and daddy so happy.  We still can't believe you are ours.  How did we get so lucky?

Christmas time was in month 3 and everyone spoiled you.  You are a lucky little girl.  You have so many people in your life that adore you.  Christmas Eve we always spend at Grandma and Poppy's house and Christmas Day we spend with the Larks.  You spent New Years Eve with mommy at home while daddy worked in NYC.  You were my first kiss of 2015.  Here are a few shots from the holiday festivities...

Mommy has been back at work since Jan 1.  We all have done some adjusting...

You and daddy had some differences of opinion when it came to whether or not you should sleep while I was gone.  You gave him a hard time and he blamed his lack of boobies. You both have compromised and worked out a routine. You liked to snuggle with your momma at night so when I went back to work you did not appreciate the change of sleeping arrangements. We let you sleep in the swing because it is the only place you stayed asleep. Youre a girl who knows what she likes.  Problem is now your starting to roll.  So, we have started trying other things.  The crib is still a little too big for your liking as you are still a peanut.  This week was a successful bassinet week so hopefully you will continue to be happy in there for awhile.  You like to be cozy, I dont blame you.


 You and your daddy have the sweetest bond.  That is one thing I am grateful for in going back to work.  I hogged you a bit and daddy relied on me a bit too much when I was home all the time.  Now when he is the only one there you both have had to figure out some new things together and it has made you that much closer. I love watching the two of you together.  Not to sound sappy but it melts my heart! I love your daddy on a whole new level after seeing how he loves you. It is so special and you are so lucky to have such a wonderful dad.

Another thing we noticed this month is that you are daddy's twin.  We always knew you looked like him but when Grandma sent me daddy's baby picture I couldn't believe it was him and not you! Don't worry, he is quite the cutie..see for yourself...

You have to know I miss you so much when I am at work.  I find myself watching videos of you, looking at pictures, calling daddy to see how you are and facetiming when I can't take it and I have to see your beautiful face. I cant wait to get home so we can snuggle.  We nap together and it is my favorite.  I really can't get enough of you.  You really bring so much joy to our lives, Rylan.

Month 4 was also your Baptism! Congrats, you are officially a little Catholic girl.
It was a really special day that we were lucky enough to share with family and friends.  You were soo good! Didn't make a peep all day.  You just love to watch everything and take in the world around you.

As we approach month five you are smiling all the time, cooing legit sentences (you love to talk!) you have started to roll from back to side, you swat at toys on your play mat, you hold your head and chest up in tummy time (so strong!) you squeal and you did share you first laugh with mommy and daddy in month 4.  Both of us were making fools of ourselves to try and get you to smile and you laughed for both of us!  It was such a special moment I will never forget! However, it was a one time deal.  Still waiting for you to share that laugh on the regular.  There is nothing better than your laugh and smiles!  You are also really noticing Molly in month 4, you follow her with your eyes and even reach out to touch her.

At you 4 month old Dr's appt you were 13 lbs 4 oz! You love to eat! (a girl after my own heart)

Things you love:  lights, the tv, showers, Molly, the car, biting anything, the swing, any kind of motion, morning time (you are so happy in the morning!) and just taking everything in.  You are very nosey and love to see what is going on.

Things you do not like: Getting boogies sucked out of your nose (you hate it actually), getting dressed, your crib, tummy time and sadly things on your head (ie bows and hats) but I am going to keep on trying because you just look so darn cute.

Daddy and I always talk about how we cant wait for the warm weather to come.  We have so many fun things planned for us to do.  You make life exciting and fun.  We love watching you discover new things and learn and grow.  You are so, so loved.  We want nothing more than to see you happy and healthy.  Thank you for bringing so much joy to our lives.  We love you!

A few more from months 3 and 4...

We Will Be Just Fine

That dreaded day is approaching, Mommy is going back to work.  I have so many feelings about this.  Part of me feels like we have had a lifetime together.  Being pregnant and life before that feels likes ages ago.  It is like you have always been here.  The other part of me is thinking how could I possibly have to go back already?!  We haven't had any time at all. It is something I felt like I never had to worry about because it was never going to come but it is here and I am sad.

You are a lot more ready than we are.  Literally one night you went to bed and infant and woke up a baby.  You are so alert and interactive.  You hold your head up like a boss and daddy swears you can stand already.  You are starting to take in the world around you and recognizing the people in your life.  Daddy will be primarily taking care of you..take it easy on him.  I selfishly want to be with you every second and I have this feeling that no one can take care of you as well as I can, even daddy.  But I think that is only true because I haven't given anyone else the chance. I think this will allow you and your daddy to bond in a special way.  I think you will be just fine.  I think daddy will be just fine.  I on the other hand will be a mess.  I will miss you every second I am gone but know that I will always come back.  I will be thinking of you the whole time I am gone and I will always leave you in able hands.

I think one of the best things I can do for you is to keep working as strange as that sounds.  Even though financially I have no choice at the moment I think even if we were rich I would work.  I love being a nurse, not as much as being a mommy, but I do enjoy my job and what it stands for.  I work really hard and make a difference in the world and I want to be a good example for you.  I want you to grow up an see that a woman can do it all.  We can be mommies, wives, homemakers and working women.  Know that you will always come first and being a wife and mommy will always be the most important roles I have.

Some times I look at you and ask you what you are going to be when you grow up.  You smile at me.  I LOVE your smiles.  You can do anything you want to do baby girl. I will support you and help you achieve all of your goals.  I can't wait to see all you will accomplish.  (take your time) we have so much fun to have first.   I love you so much and as I go back to work I hope we will all adapt well.  I know its going to be hard at first, for me at least, but we will get through it and we will all be just fine.

Month 2

I feel like I am going to say this every month but..time is flying!!  It is so bitter sweet. On one hand I love to watch you grow and see you achieve new milestones but on the other hand you are my baby and you are growing up and I want to hold on to every little second that seems to slip away so quickly! These are precious moments. Even the hard ones.  I know I will look back one day and miss these days so much so I am trying to soak it all up.  

You are smiling! Not just the gas smiles but actual smiles and we LOVE it! Nothing makes me happier than to see those dimples.  You are a morning person, very unlike your momma.  You are so happy when you wake up.  We play every morning.  Your dad wakes up extra early before work to have that time with you. Night time is a different story. Hard to believe that happy, sweet little baby gets so angry at night! We are working on it ;)

A few things you love: lights, tv (probably because of the lights), the shower, the car, Molly, being rocked and held, eating, laying on your belly and sleeping on your momma.

A few things you don't like: getting dressed, getting into your carseat, sitting still,  your crib

Here are some of your two month old shots..

You and Molly are developing a special bond.. when you cry it definitely alarms her but she is always close by..

For Halloween you were a ballerina.  You were still so tiny no costumes fit you! But I have to say you are the most beautiful baby ballerina I have ever seen 

Thanksgiving you got to meet a lot of new family members..

Your cousins! They love you so much!

They made you a christmas reindeer at build - a - bear

Some more of the Larks.. 

Your great grandma Lark.. She was so excited to meet you

You are still a daddys girl..

You love to sleep on mommy..

Best news of the month is Uncle Robbie moved home! 

walking on the boardwalk with Mimi..

You still make the best faces..

You are starting to love your activity mat also! lots of colors and things to look at

Christmas card pictures..nailed it!

Your two month check up you were 9 lb 14 oz.  Growing like a champ. Perfect and healthy in everyway.  We couldnt ask for anything more.  You are wildly loved baby girl!