July 30, 2010


Change is a funny thing. It's something we all go through, an inevitable part of life. It can make us feel so many emotions at the same time; excitement, fear, anxiety, hope etc. As human beings we are creatures of habit. We all have our routines, a way of thinking and doing things and that makes us feel safe and content. We resist change. Why? Because with any great change comes great risk and adjustment. It's often unfamiliar, something we have never experienced before and that makes us vulnerable. To change something about our life, for example, a job, a home or a relationship is scary. There is the possibility that we may fail or be unhappy but on the flip side there is the equal possibility that we will succeed and be happier then we ever thought possible.

I'm going through a few changes in my life right now. Can you tell? Im excited, scared, anxious and hopeful, among other things, all at the same time. I'm taking a risk, hoping that it will be a positive change for me at this point in time. The beauty of this life is that there is no permanency to our decicions. We can change things for ourselves if we choose, it may not always be easy but it is possible. So, I've learned not to be afraid to take a chance, try something new. Could it backfire? Ofcourse. But it could also be the best thing I ever did. Afterall, isnt it better to follow your heart, try and fail then to be crippled by fear and never know what could have been? That's what I thought too.

July 17, 2010

The Things We Do For Love

My boyfriend has always been an outdoorsy guy. He lives for the survivor type adventures. Me..not so much. For our 6 year anniversary (go us) I decided to try to be a good girlfriend and agree to a 3.3 mile hike up Bear Mountain. Some of you more 'in shape' people may laugh at such a short distance as he did but I will tell you that this was not an easy feat. Here it is..the mountain I barely conquered...Not so big you say? Piece of cake? Yes, these were my thoughts as well until about 5 minutes in when I seriously considered turning back.

This is at the beginning of the trail.. Notice the lack of sweat, the smile on my face, my muscles at this moment are still in their relaxed, preferred state.

Who ever mapped out this trail had people like me in mind. Every few hundred feet were perfect rocks to sit on. As much as I wanted to turn back and head over to the pool to sunbathe with a margarita in hand I had a little pep talk with myself. "Liz, your going to be very mad at yourself if you don't get to the top. You can do this. Slow and Steady." Yea, fine..I am a dork but it worked.

We made it! 2 hours and 2 gallons of water later here we are on top of Bear Mountain. The view and tranquility was worth the effort. Thank you to my wonderful, patient, encouraging boyfriend as I could not and would not have done this without you.

Now its my turn..Broadway date! hehehe

July 09, 2010

love love love

Since I had such a wonderful experience with 'rent the runway,' I wasted no time in securing a dress for the next wedding I have in August...here it is..a Nicole Miller Sweetheart mini..

it's love....

July 05, 2010

Thoughts From the Heart

I have so many questions I would like to ask of you;
Where have you been? Why don't you care? What did I do?
Do you ever think of me? Know that I often think of you.
I wish you weren't so selfish, I wish you wanted me too.
I wonder what my childhood would have been like if you were there for me.
Maybe it would have been easier, maybe I would have been happy.
All my life I have longed for you more then you will ever know.
Over and over again I was hurt by the lack of love that you would show.
I've spent many years trying to understand how this came to be.
I think it's simply who you are, you've refused to change for your family.
I want you to know that I miss you and I'll always love you still.
Afterall, your my father, there's a hole in my heart only you can fill.
Maybe one day we can be friends, I'd like that very much.
I think you might be proud of who I am and may want to stay in touch.
In the mean time I'll be patient and continue to be okay..
Thanks to the love from my family and friends that I am blessed with every day.