April 30, 2015

So That's What They Meant...

So there a few things I heard about motherhood that I didn't fully understand until I became a mother.

1.  "Enjoy your sleep while you can"  uh huh.  Who ever coined the term "I slept like a baby" obviously never had children.  It's almost like your baby knows when you want to sleep and decides to wake up at that exact time.  Yes, they sleep a lot.  But in the beginning the longest stretch is three hours.  Rylan is 7 months old and sleeping 10-12 hour stretches. woo hoo!  but as a mother you still dont sleep!  I find myself continuously waking up frequently to check the monitor.  For what? to make sure she's still there, still human, I dont know.  As I look at my husband sleeping soundly I have realized that once you become a mother you will never really sleep well again. I dont want to sleep like a baby I just want to sleep like my husband.

2.  "The love is like no other"  I mean I have loved people in my life.  Rylan could murder a litter of puppies (and we all know how I feel about animals) and I would still love her to the point of exhaustion.  She's got me.  I'm hooked.  I would do anything for that sweet girl. Frank looked at me other day after looking at the baby monitor and said "don't take this the wrong way but I have never loved anyone more than I love that little girl"  It just is. You can't explain it.  It's just the purest form of love there is.

3.  "Your body will never be the same"   but really, it wont.  I mean think of the process of pregnancy and birth for a second...how could it?  Not to say it's not totally worth it.  There are just things about my body I have said goodbye to and other things I have accepted.  I also have a whole new respect for my body for going through this whole process and knowing what to do when I didn't.  For giving my baby exactly what she needs without me even having to think about it.  Its pretty freaking awesome if you ask me.

4.  "You will be lucky if you get to shower"  I always found a way to make this happen.  I can see how its tricky but I just needed it to happen every day, especially after the whole birthing a child process.  I just needed to shower to feel good and my husband knew I needed 20 min every morning.  20 minutes is not so much to ask for given everything we do in a day as moms.  Am I right?  Demand your 20 minutes ladies.

5. "Kiss your social life goodbye, your life changes forever"  I mean yes I no longer go out to bars, clubs etc but the thing they leave out is you could care less.  All I want to do was be with her and my husband anyway.  You couldnt pay me to leave her in the beginning.  As she got older and I slowly started develop my very short list of people I trusted to babysit, yes, I ventured out to dinners, drinks w/ people who could talk back to me etc but even then the whole time I thought about her and couldn't wait to get home to her.  Motherhood changes you.  What you find "fun" is different.  What you consider a perfect weekend night is forever changed but you wouldn't have it any other way.

April 26, 2015

Can't Get Enough

When you were born someone told me that while I would be sad to see you grow up so fast, I wouldn't trade past stages for each new one.  That they just get better and better. And it is so true!  I LOVED the newborn snuggles.  All you ever wanted to do was sleep on mommy or daddy's chest and we couldn't get enough either.  We don't get those kind of snuggles anymore because you are too busy discovering the world around you but now we get those smiles and giggles and we definitely wouldn't trade those for anything.  You just turned 7 months old.  (Mommy has some catching up to do with the blog posts) Here are  just a few things that I love that you do these days...

You wake up around 6 or 7 am (nope not that part) and when I go to pick you up from your crib you give me the biggest smiles and then you grab my face with both hands and pull me towards you to suck on my cheek.  I know its because you are hungry but I like to think you are giving me kisses. :)

I love how you squeal when you are really happy.  You aren't ticklish so it is very hard to get those giggles out of you.  You like it when we startle you when we play peek a boo.  You get so excited!

I love how when I sing to you or play music you sing back.

I love how you are starting to reach for me.  You are very good and go to everyone and make everyone feel good but you are just now starting to decide when you want your momma back.  It makes me feel really good.

I love how when I am feeding your big girl food,  you literally can't get it fast enough.  You will "chew" on the air and show your disapproval when I don't give you your bites fast enough.  I love how much you love food.  I also love the faces you make when you try new things.

I love how when you breastfeed you use one of your hands to stroke me or put your hand in my mouth.

I love how you try so hard to have conversations with me.

I love how much you love Molly.  You are already an animal lover like your mom and dad.

I love that you sleep through the night now :)

I love how when we nap and you wake up first you lay there and quietly play with my face until I open my eyes and I get the biggest grin from you.

I love how much you love you!  A sure fire way to see you get a kick out of something is to show you your own reflection.

I love how you try so hard to get those toes in your mouth only to see that face after you realize they dont taste so good.

You make us laugh everyday.  You make everyone you meet smile.  Your daddy and I talk everyday about how lucky we are to have you in our lives.  It is true that I miss some of those newborn days only because I love snuggling with you.  My perfect little peanut.  But I wouldn't trade any of it for the little baby you are growing in to.  I am so excited to keep watching you grow!